Mood swings

[bktheirregular]

Sometimes, you can feel yourself teetering on the edge of ... I don't know what the proper medical or psych term is for it, so I'll just call it a "depressive slump" - when your mood just suddenly seems to nosedive for no logical reason that you can discern.

Almost hit me this morning. Isolation tends to be a bit of a trigger for me - there's only so much talking to voicemail machines and listening to phones ring without ever being picked up that I can manage before I begin to wonder: should I just give up? Is it just bad luck and bad timing, or is it something more fundamentally wrong with me?

Seeing a movie about someone who, for the sake of his career, basically turns his family and personal life into an emotional postapocalyptic wasteland doesn't help.

Maybe part of it is that, for all my family roots here, all too often I'm still a stranger in a strange land. And in the process, I'm losing my grip on everything I had back home. (This post was originally triggered by a thought: is it possible to fall out of fandom so completely that you leave no trace, as though you'd never been?)

Comments

[twistedchick]

A friend of ours was an exchange student in Greece, years back. She got separated from the rest of her group, which were supposed to meet at a famous monastery. So she started asking people, "Pou e moni?" which she thought meant "Where is the monastery?" But she was mispronouncing the last word, which meant she was asking people to find part of her anatomy. It was not a happy situation.